In the blogging & handmade world you probably hear a lot of us talking about following our passions, I don't necessarily mean quitting your job and just becoming a full time blogger or shop owner though. Once upon a time I was passionate about photography. I was taught on manual with film through high school and college then moved into digital. I've always loved taking pretty pictures and it just so happened when I really put my heart into it I was inspired to create beautiful images for others.
Just like any other field you choose to pursue though, unless you stay positive and passionate about it then losing interest can be a huge possibility. For me it took a couple of things. The ugly side of blogging, competition and copy cats.. and the clients.
I actually LOVED LOVE LOVED 90% of my clients and in all honesty I almost stuck with it because of them, but that other 10% were down right evil and crazy! They made what I saw out of my lens become something so uninspiring and 'job-like' that I slowly started getting out of it.
Then there were the other photographers who form clicks. The ones who are Canon or Nikon (or insert any other brand here) hard core lovers. The ones that attend WPPI and the ones that would never. The ones that use old versions of programs they love and the ones that are snobby if you don't have the newest coolest editing toys. The amazing ones you just want to learn from that won't give you the time of day. Don't get me wrong, not all of it was bad.. and I did love a lot of things I learned and people I met... for me though the money was a perk, the images were the payoff and trying to find others with a like mindset is very very hard in this industry.
All I wanted to do was to take pretty pictures and capture someones memories for them. I wanted to freeze time on a beautiful moment and be proud of what I was able to see. Sometimes I get so angry at myself for letting things get to me so easily that I actually walked away from it because of things that in all reality are so petty.
Really... I just lost my passion.
I think that no matter what your heart wants you to do, you should at least try it. It doesn't mean you are a failure if you don't do it forever. I could tell you that my business was insanely successful (& hey maybe that led to some stress and also gave me the push to quit), but success can only be measured in what makes you happy at the end of the day. So go after what you love, do it to the best of your ability and if you have to make sacrifices to get there.. if you have to piss people off to get there.. whatever it is, just make a plan- do it right and take a chance.
I have thousands and thousands of images in my hard drive that sometimes I like to look through. I'm so torn because I look at them and think 'hey I took that, I did that.. someone has that photo and I did that' and then sometimes now when I look at things.. I'm not inspired to take the photos like I once was (unless its for my instagram addiction!) and that saddens me because I see nothing. Its like it was ruined.
If I would have stuck with it and maintained my busy schedule I would have a different blog with a different audience and I wouldn't have time for my shops.. I probably (& most likely) wouldn't have needed a bigger studio or be living in this house, made the friends I have or even been given the opportunities that have come my way this last year. I think things just happen for a reason and if I had to lose one thing to gain all these others that's an okay trade by me. At least I have the memories & actual images to remember something I did that was good for myself and others.